Week ending March 28

Week 22

The wrong code was used.

I no longer need my BO to comfort me.

I have to think of a topic and I don't really have one.

A letter written in pencil.

Didn't tell what I need to tell.

Reading as respite.

or they no longer seem like people

am I a device of myself?

obliviousness as a form of government

the go faster go faster anxiety

I want to live somewhere with grass.

Week ending March 21

Week 21

Then he's also giving me peanuts.

I had no idea at all that we were in danger.

A man who knows facts about everything.

"I have no country."

"I am here to save a secret from being dug up."

Then I walked into a key.

We are in a treehouse.

Door after door after door.

It's possibility seems itself impossible.

"May I ask what earthquake caused your mind to work?"

The last day of winter.

we can't make the same mistakes as other people

I don't think I know the kind of person who knows jokes.

David Brazil: "The opportunity perhaps fades of doing something decisive, but was that ever any thing but a fantasy anyway?"

If there are eyes, something must be created for them to see?

Week ending March 14

Week 20

Unless I write it in the bath?

I feel refreshed and deeply tired simultaneously.

What if when I said "Just for you," she believed me?

I wonder if more stress helps.

I need to be busier and less disciplined.

This notebook has two front covers.

I'm calling that please it's so hard to relax.

Nobody is happy because they don't have a home.

I was feeling sexual shame and so I bought a vibrator.

A list of things that are hard to do in yoga.

A list of things to buy in bulk.

A postcard from Micah and a library receipt.

Maybe the point is not to stop expressing but to stop having something to express.

Its not real if I can see through it.

Gossiping as a trying to pin reality down and define it.

What will I do with the rope?

Track 5 is quieter.

You can't trust situations and what they are, and will they get away from you.

All these papers with numbers on them. And all this shame,

Week ending March 7

Week 19

Thoughts are a desperation trying to convince you that you are alive.

Other people's examples are never my own.

All nerves are for naught.

A distinct vision, in the middle of the night, of a laughing skull.

, which means I just won't read for the month of March.

it is only a geographical sadness

This book I loved like crazy til i get to a part where she says the n word.

Is it only a way these women have of matching men, these tough women.

I don't know if it was staged, or heckling.

Reality is here to be changed.

I have a feeling they know everything I do.

Week ending February 28

Week 18

Had a great day today and it was because of busyness but particularly busyness in my body.

The boyfriend was apparently really wasted and being a jerk.

Am convinced he's an actual bodhisattva.

Flarf as the new persona poem.

Happy Birthday so-and-so.

"Here take a cookie."

They are in the walls.

you hurt me so bad when she turned

Or is it three sheets to the wind?

I will really really eat no more chocolate tonight.

My name is Neo. My name is Carrie White!

It is very old, I don't know if it will work.

I never want to be the kind of person like the person who lives above me.

Putting meaningless contextless things together in a way that makes it appear as if it has meaning.

I don't understand the Ash part.

So many things invisible.

"The thing that saves your work is opacity."

Root cause of female masochism!

He gets to be different.

folds that are hard to untangle

the city and how it wants to frame you

The athiest's God is nothingness.

"I have hit 13 deer in 7 weeks!"


Things I printed out or read online:

http://quarterlyconversation.com/sagacircus-by-lyn-hejinian-review

http://www.saltpublishing.com/saltmagazine/issues/02/text/Mazer_Ben.htm

http://www.truthout.org/022409R

http://100dayspoems.blogspot.com/2009/02/day-38-geraldine-kim.html

http://www.actionyes.org/issue9/kunin/kunin1.html

http://www.sir-magazine.org/

http://www.lanaturnerjournal.com/article.php?article=juliana_spahr

http://nonsitecollective.org/blog/148

Week ending February 21

Week 17

It is that I have karma to work off; it is trying to prevent something from happening that I don't know about.

I pushed too hard, and things just want to break.

The internet kills what it wants to breed.

Nothing happens when you are ready for it.

Most people are not satanists.

The gestures that communicate.

I'm glad I've found out the truth.

She loves Go Tell It on the Mountain.

You have to be conscious of what the situation really is.

I thought I just didn't know how to do it.

Oppen: "To stand alone is not my problem. That is easily done. Too easily."

I think there are sequences and steps to things I know absolutely nothing about.

Now with Pluto downgraded we are in the age of 8 planets.

He says he lost the ability to form words.

"Bruno was obsessed with the number thirty."

But seemingly concordant, coming to the chapter The Parable of the Phantom City just as I found Guillermo Parra's Phantasmal Repeats.

Anger at strangers is merely pre-hurt.

Week ending February 14

Week 16

And it was like wandering through a city or country you lived in years and years ago.

If I were of a mystical bent, or if I was into number symbolism, I would be very curious indeed.

Plutosofia

Maybe it was a part of a nightmare, but it is a nightmare that is my actual life.

And maybe that is what I want to say to myself.

The confidence to say things very precisely.

It is the last aspect of that fear that will be defeated.

Why do I always dream of cows?

The only thing that's a matter of life or death, is life or death literally.

Why do I write things like that down?

As long as the question remains unanswered or is vaguely answered.

This relay race of fermatas.

Giving up my bias.

Maybe there is nothing my psyche has to tell me.

Mutability a strength.